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Delbert I. Carr's Testimony My name is Delbert l. Carr im 18 years old and have a rather extensive testimony about how the lord is now working in my life. I started testing drugs when I was only 8 years old, it didn't get serious till I was about 13 years old. I was dropping out of school getting in fights and using anything that made itself known to me. My parents did all they could for me but I was a lost cause, when I turned 15 they sent me to a Christian drug rehab for 3 months. It really seemed to help me but after all I was back at it in a year or so. My parents divorced so I hit the streets and started to deal drugs my life was ending quicker than I could catch it. I was 2 months away from my 18th birthday and I was starting to realize that I couldn't continue to use or sell drugs that it was ruining me and if I got caught I could spend allot of time in jail. So I moved in with my mom little did I know that she had accumulated many problems of her own without God in her life anymore. She was desperate for help so I got a job to help her keep her house but all the while I was getting drunk. One day I drank so much that I was laying in my own puke deathly ill from alcohol poisoning, that is when a beautiful girl came in and cleaned me up I was in love at first sight we started to date and within 2 months she was pregnant with my child and we where engaged I decided to turn my life around I was working we had moved into our own apartment and I thought pretty highly of myself. All the while I was still drinking and we where starting to have violent fights. After the baby was born things went very wrong, my uncle died, her mother tried to kill herself, the doctors found that she had genital warts and that she had given them to me! life was falling my relationship was dieing and I felt so sorry for myself that I drank even more. Needless to say Erika my fiancée left me I never hurt her but I was very sorry for the pain I must have caused her, but I couldn't and still cant understand why it was ended over one argument but I know now that God was saving me from further hurt, she has now exposed a very evil side of herself. She hasn't let me see my daughter in 3 months and put a restraining order on me to make it even harder to see her. I knew something had to change but I didn't know how, the fact was I was drinking so much that one day I just got drunk and went to her house she had me arrested. I was charged with a dui, 3rd degree trespassing, minor consumption, breaking a restraining order, violating a court order, simple assault, disorderly conduct and domestic violence. All that only took me ten minutes of drunken rage, I faced 2 years in prison and countless fines I stepped back and looked at it all and realized that at my young age I had ruined my life, prison would make me hard and a disgrace to my family and mostly to my daughter. I was emotionally destroyed no one could help me I was hurt, scared and well destroyed by the last 5 years of my life, I started to blame everyone but me. I was surprised to hear from an old friend he was the pastor that put me in the set free Christian drug rehab when I was younger. He offered to go to court with me and see if they would let me go to the rehab, it sounded wonderful to me the thought of turning my life over to God again instilled new hope in me and that in itself was a miracle cause I had no hope for years! I wasn't sure that the court would agree that it was the place for me even if I was sure of it I was still facing felony charges. I started going back to a church I used to go to and I accepted Christ into my life again my faith was not strong it still isn't very strong but exceptionally stronger than before, I found that fellowship made me feel good and reading the word and praying was making me happier than I had been for as long as I could remember! I put my faith in him and prayed every day and had allot of people praying for me also, I went to court and pleaded guilty to the judge and presented my story and the set free drug rehab to him. God worked many miracles for me that day the felonies where dropped to misdemeanors for no reason and the judge gave me only 10 days in jail, six months in the set free drug rehab, a year unsupervised probation, dui class and domestic violence class. So the main part of my testimony is that I realized that Gods wrath is letting us live our own lives and he has blessed me be giving me the chance to follow him and be a good person this is very special to me because I know that some people are not shown the way so easily and have to experience much more than I have. I hope to make my roots in Jesus strong and build faith in the next 6 months and be able to come back and do good things for him through my church, face all of my life through Jesus and praise him through all that I do!! sincerely, |