In My Room Lying In Bed,
I felt some of your first kicks from within my womb. With my eyes closed I could almost picture your round face and active, little body. My growing belly was a sign of the new life the Lord was about to deliver into this world. So young, so unsure of myself, yet I was so at peace with the thought of you developing inside of me. The Lord was the Master Planner of this time in my life, and this time in your life. Sometimes feelings of helplessness would overcome me, but in my room I had time to reflect and relax and put my trust in God. You weren't in my plans; you were in God's plans. How exciting to realize that you were a complete gift from the Lord! With my hands resting on my stomach in hopes of feeling another kick, I smiled at the thought of you. The Lord and I both knew that the time of pregnancy would soon be gone. And it is.

In My Room Lying In Bed,
I wrapped you in a blanket and cuddled you in my arms. I marveled at the perfection of God's work. I studied your baby eyes and tiny body. With skin so soft, your smell so sweet and all of your features so intricately formed, it's as if you were fresh from heaven. I could tell from day one that you were going to be a good baby. From my room I remember hearing so many nights of singing and rocking that you shared with your Meme and Papa. They were always there to feed you in the middle of the night. I think they realized, too, that this piece of time with you will soon pass. You were the light of their life, just as you were to everyone you came in contact with. I kissed your tiny newborn head, closed my eyes and cherished the quiet time we had together. The Lord and I both knew that this time in your life, the beginning, would soon be gone. And it is.

In My Room Lying In Bed,
I woke up to a big hug and kiss on my cheek every morning. Your cute grin was my favorite thing to see first thing in the early-morning hours. Sharing one pillow, you'd tell me about your night-time dreams. You could talk about your dreams for hours if I let you. I don't know how you were blessed with such an imagination, but I soaked in all of your stories and watched with wonder at your animation. I saw the excitement in your little-boy eyes and treasured this time of playfulness. The Lord and I both knew that this time in your life, the toddler years, would soon be gone. And it is.

In My Room Lying In Bed,
I hear the voice of a school-aged boy playing with his sisters. So tender and affectionate, you fill your mother's heart with pride. Those two bright-eyed girls look up to you like you are a mighty hero. Sometimes with teasing, but always with a sensitive heart, you fill their lives, and mine, with happiness and joy. I love seeing the attachment that you share with your sisters. God was so gracious to me when He brought this family together. I think He had it all worked out before I was even born. You are perfect for me as my son. Right now I am holding on to this time and will try my hardest to remember everything about you, from your curly, brown hair to your warm hugs. The Lord and I both know that this time in your life, the school-aged years, will soon be gone.

In My Room Lying In Bed,
I am struggling to imagine how I will adjust when you become a man and leave this mom of yours. This house will be a lot quieter, a lot emptier, and always longing for your return. My heart will be the same- empty and longing for your return. Your bedroom can be turned into any room I want- a craft room, a guest room, a computer room, anything my heart desires. But I know without a doubt that I would be happiest if it was that same room it is now, filled with boy toys and clothes, forever needing to be cleaned. Every stage you have gone through and will go through will be etched into my heart as a valuable piece of history. The memories won't go away, but you will. When you're grown and the head of your own family, I want you to remember the times we've shared together. A mother's love doesn't forget her child. The Lord and I both know that this time in my life, motherhood, will be the best time of my life.